I needed something to change drastically
Right this second
Or I knew I’d go insane
If I hadn’t lost my mind already
I needed something,
anything
But my mind only drew unfamiliar pictures
And my brain didn’t quite know
What it was
I so desperately yearned for

I wanted to be held
For two hands to keep me in one piece
Whilst I desired to be alone
To have the time and space to fall apart, completely
And I longed to hear the soothing sounds of my favorite song
Whilst I wished for the silence to be so deafening,
quietness was all I could hear
My mind painted pictures in black and white
And colors bright enough to hurt my eyes
And I wanted it all
To dig my fingernails in so deep,
I’d leave marks on everything I couldn’t grasp
And I wanted nothing
To have things flood through my fingers like water
And let go
My intellect craves the desire of wanting
Whilst my soul is hungry for the things it can’t touch.
So,            I wanted it all
And            I wanted nothing.

– ARM