It was October
And Christmas ornaments started
to decorate store decors
Lights were put up in trees
And soon, the first snow would fall
And all I could think about was
how I wish there wasn’t another Christmas
How I didn’t want to participate
In parties with meaningless laughter
Sparkly dresses and suits with ties
And how I didn’t want to savour
Another tasteless dinner
Just to satisfy the cook
My ears hurt just thinking
about senseless conversations
at the kitchen table
And my mouth fell dry
Thinking about the words
I wouldn’t be able to spill
Merry Christmas
Empty wishes
Just another duty to fulfill