Dear body,
I’m so sorry
For everything I put you through
The endless exhaustion
Denying you, your needed fuel
For trying to fit you in a shape
You had outgrown for years
For almost making you break
And not allowing you to get rid
of your oceans filled with tears

For leaving you screaming
Asking me what I’m doing
Why I’m doing this to you
While you’ve grown with me
Healing me when I was sick
Always taking care for free
Wanting nothing in return

And now I’m abandoning
You,
my closest friend
After everything we’ve been through
I’m so sorry
I know you don’t understand
I didn’t mean to hurt you
I wasn’t thinking straight
And I’m so glad I fought back
For you and my own sake

– Anorexia polluted my brain and made me do this to you